Palistine

well yo.

here I am at the palistine public library. this is some fun stuff. I'm supposed to be here working on my cambridge work, but you all know how that goes.

I guess I am enjoying my time here, but I wish I could be at home. I keep having dreams about jared, and going up to see him. but I guess I might just have to wait for next summer. and then I might not.

I have to have this long conversation with my mom about going to mexico. I already have it all planned out. because I overheard her talking to my dad about how she didn't want me to go on the trip. so I've been praying a lot, not just to God, but to st. Jude the patron saint of lost causes, because I guess it is a lost cause. and I promised him if he let me go on the trip that I would pay him back with the experiences of the trip; that I would help the people. duh.

and I'm not going just to help the people of mexico, but I'm going for myself and to see jared and spend 3 weeks with him. but my mom won't find that out.

so I've cried my eyes out everynight since monday because I may not ever see mexico or Jared ever again. talk about ruining a trip that wasn't so great to begin with

so this is some fun stuff that I've got to deal with, especially takling to my mom, because I have to be very careful because she's so sensitive. geeze.

but I know that this is what God wants me to do, and I know he'll find a way to do it. so there.

enough spiritual ravings.

so I'm stuck in this small town with nothing to do but cook(andy would be proud) and eat and sleep watch tv and talk to my sister and do cambridge stuff until friday when we go to dallas and see my aunt. she's so great.

blah. I want to go home and fill out my application!!

the time is 2:22 and I hope my wish comes true

don't go you scream as I walk out your door

2001-08-15 @ 2:22 p.m.